The purpose of this blog is to keep family and friends updated with the most recent news on Matthew. It will also document his biggest trial to date and serve as a reminder of how many people love and support him, and how much the Lord loves him when he has beat this terrible disease.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Normal...Whatever That Is

Good afternoon my family and friends! I just want to let you all know that Matthew is back to normal...kind of. He's in the clinic getting chemo therapy today, and he's still wheel chair bound, but his pain level is low and controlled. There is one bummer though..his counts are dropping and he is in danger of becoming neutropenic again. He's going to start receiving those really painful, daily shots again that he was getting during his stem cell harvest to bring his counts back up. They're painful, but it will be worth it because it will hopefully also get rid of his bone pain. He's also going in for another marrow sample so they can make sure they know exactly what is causing his pain. Fun times. This experience is like the never ending story. There is always something happening and it's rarely fun.

On a happier note, we're still receiving a lot of love and support from people all over the world. Just to give you all a visual of this support, I posted a map of statistics that blogger.com makes for me. This map shows where in the world people are reading my blog. The darker green areas are where the heavier traffic is. It's really fun to read the statistics, and they keep me motivated to write everything down. I hope this blog will not only be a good scrapbook for Matthew to look back on and a way to keep loved ones in the loop, but also a personal resource for others who may be dealing with cancer to stumble upon.

Some of the countries listed as readers of this blog are:
The U.S., Spain, France, Canada, Germany, Netherlands, the U.K., Russia, South Korea, Honduras, China, Taiwan, Australia, Estonia, etc.
Thanks for reading!

Some other fun stats about readers...

 Web browsers used to read:

Devices used to read:
iPhone is almost tied with PC computers! I didn't realize SO many people have iPhones.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Hospital Sunday + Chemo Round Nine


This weekend was a rough one for Matthew.  Last Thursday, even though he was in pain and a wheel chair, the crazy kid still went to his volleyball game against Highland. It was an exciting game because it was a nail biter, and Gilbert was able to pull out the win. On Friday, he really wanted to go to the assembly at the school, so mom took him and dropped him off at 8:10AM and he was gone all day in his wheel chair. He was able to see all of his friends, go to seminary, and still go to volleyball practice. When he got home around 6:30 he was exhausted, so he laid around all night. On Saturday he was in a lot of pain and slept through almost the entire day.  Sunday he was in even more pain. It's hard for my parents to move him around because his joints are so sore and swollen.  He got a bloody nose on Sunday and ended up in the hospital late that afternoon needing platelets. Mom said he was even throwing up blood at home before they took him to the hospital. Once he was at the hospital, he ended up getting a fever and needing an antibiotic. They also gave him a chest X-ray because his blood pressure was high. Dad told them that it is high because he hates the hospital so much that it makes him anxious.  They wanted to keep him in the hospital, but we all know that would mean he will be there for as long as they want to keep him, so dad said refused. He told them that he was going to take him home so T could do his chemo in the clinic. The hospital made dad sign paperwork stating that it was against the hospital's advice for dad to take Matthew, but he knows what is best for Matthew. They got home around 12:30AM.

Matthew made it to the clinic Monday morning and he was happy to be there.  They are so good to him there and he loves everyone so much because they take such great care of him. They are all sincerely invested in his health and happiness. He is now sleeping his week away having chemo and hoping that it will do it's job and knock out this pain.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Leopard Boy

Yesterday Matthew broke out in hives from his platelets for some reason. The nurses said that this is the worst case of hives they have ever seen. Since yesterday, he's been on all kinds of good stuff like morphine, hydroxyzine, and benadryl. He's still a little itchy and in pain off and on, but he's pretty much under control. Oh Matthew, the things you do for attention...




Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Dear Jack

Below is T's schedule of events leading up to his transplants. Yesterday he was in the hospital getting psycho analyzed to make sure he is fit to spend months in the hospital. Everyone who gets a transplant has to be psycho analyzed. During the analysis, they asked him a million questions, had him count, do puzzles, etc. My mom also had to fill out a sheet that asked her a ton of questions. The whole procedure took four and a half hours. We get the results from that on the 7th or 8th of next month, so we’ll know if he’s certifiably insane by then! Although, I think four and a half hours of nonsense would drive a person to insanity. He had to go to the clinic for morphine after seeing the psychiatrist because he was in so much pain. He goes in for the actual transplant on April 22nd, my parents' 25th wedding anniversary.


Valliere Jones, a woman in our ward, contacted the Maag Toy Foundation, told them about T and asked them to get something for him to occupy him in the hospital. They sent T a huge lego set. She brought it over on the Sunday that just past. It's a Star Wars super star destroyer set that consists of over 3000 pieces. He's not allowed to open it until he goes into the hospital, but he's really excited to put it together. Thank you Valiere and Maag Toy Foundation! (They're a cool foundation, check them out! maagtoyfoundation.org/stories.html)
 
So here's a cool story...Matthew has loved Andrew McMahon for a long time because of his music with Something Corporate and Jack's Mannequin. He's also watched a movie by him about his own cancer journey titled "Dear Jack" before he was diagnosed. Since he was diagnosed, he's watched it a few more times. He's even had our family watch it. It's a really good movie, especially because Matthew has experienced, and will experience a lot of what Andrew has experienced, and I think it really inspires Matthew. Andrew had leukemia and needed a bone marrow transplant as well, so I think Matthew looks to the movie for guidance as well so he knows kind of what to expect. (You can watch the movie here: dearjackmovie.com It's really worth it!) Last night Andrew had a concert in Scottsdale, but by the time Matthew realized this a while ago, the show was already sold out. My mom's friend, Penny, from Utah knew this, so she bought Matthew tickets to one of Andrew's shows in Tucson that happened a week ago. Matthew was really excited, but then he went neutropenic (neutropenia - the presence of abnormally few neutrophils in the blood, leading to increased susceptibility to infection) and couldn't go. He was devastated. Penny sent an email to someone telling him that Matthew has cancer and was too sick to go to the Tucson show, and asked for her money back. The man who she emailed responded to her saying that he would refund her money, and that he put Matthew on the guest list to the sold out show in Scottsdale!

Our whole family got to go to the concert last night. Matthew was in a lot of pain yesterday though, and we were nervous he would miss this concert too, but he got morphine and two oxycodones, so he was able to go. It was so fun, and was awesome to watch Matthew’s reactions. He was so happy to watch Andrew perform live. He also got the best spot in the house! He had to be in a wheel chair because he is too weak to stand for long periods of time, so the people who worked at Martini Ranch wheeled him right up front just outside of the barricade. Our family was let in very first as well, so we all got right up in the front just inside the barricade. It was the best concert ever. I was happy because he played my favorite song, “Dark Blue.”

Towards the end of the show Matthew’s pain started to come back, and he got pretty feverish. He refused to leave though. We all waited for like 45 minutes after the concert for Andrew to come out and meet his fans, and Matthew was wheeled to the front by one of Andrew’s guys and was first to meet him. While we were waiting, the lead guitarist came out and was talking to my dad, Hannah, and me. He just started going on about how he loves the flashlights from Sears, but not the drills or saws because those drain the batteries in like three minutes. So, now we know that the lead guitarist likes flashlights from Sears. It was funny listening to him. Mom told Andrew when he came out about what T is going through and what he has coming. Andrew was really great and caring towards Matthew, which was cool to see. He really took time to talk to T and make him feel cared about. Before we left, T gave Andrew one of his “Fight for Matthew” wristbands and Andrew put it on right away and said he would always wear it. He also told Matthew that he would check on him. He’s is the best!

Hannah and T before the concert














 





















































This morning he is in a lot of pain again, so he’s back in the clinic getting morphine, three units of blood, a unit of platelets, and steroids. It seems like every time this kid wants to do something fun he has to pay a serious and painful price for doing it. Every time he does something bigger than normal, he ends up in the clinic or the hospital. He thinks it’s worth it though. He won’t let cancer take everything from him, which I think is awesome. He’s a really tough kid. The nurses and doctor at the clinic are trying really hard to get Matthew’s pain under control so he doesn’t end up in the hospital by the weekend. My mom said, “He has some amazing nurses who we love so much and a great doctor who we also love. I wish I could take these nurses, Michelle, Jodi, Sasha and Kate, and the PCT, Traci, with us to the hospital for his transplant. Or better yet, have a bubble put at the clinic for Matthew.” Medical staff really make a difference in the lives of patients and their families.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Cancer Has Me

So Matthew is sticking diligently to his plan of sleeping through chemo therapy so his days are shorter. I try not to take a lot of pictures of him sleeping because he might get embarrassed, but...I couldn't resist this one! He is sleeping in his superhero uniform! I love it.

Props for his Batman Snuggie go out to our Aunt Brenda who lives in Utah. Brenda, he loves his Snuggie! He wears it everywhere. He wears it as a jacket to chemo at the clinic, to the hospital, in the shower...(just kidding about the shower) So thank you for his uniform to get suited up in on his way to fight cancer!

In the clinic yesterday, Matthew wanted to be pushed on his fluid cart thing, so we waited for all of the nurses to clear the hall. Then, mom pushed him. It was quite the adventure. Look at the look on his face! What a dork. And mom is so radiant!


These are the kinds of posts I love to do. I love writing about our silly moments because that means we are having them. You never really appreciate the little moments like this until you've experienced the other side of things. When Matthew was in the hospital unconscious and in pain, I would think about all of the dumb things we did together and it made me really...homesick...for how we were together before all of this. I don't know if that word choice makes sense, but that's the best one I can think of right now. I feel so blessed that he is being so strong through this, and that his doctors are so confident that he is going to beat this because I don't think I can handle that kind of a blow. I think the lessons I'm supposed to learn, and that my family is supposed to learn, are in the fight and not the loss. I also think that Matthew is meant to survive to help others and share his experience with people, both sick and healthy. I think my family shares my feelings as well. 


Of course it's not good that I have cancer. But perhaps you should ask cancer how it feels. It has me.

Monday, March 4, 2013

False Alarm

This weekend was a pretty rough one. Around Friday evening, Matthew started experiencing pain in his shoulders, elbows and shins. We assumed this was the cancer growing back in his bones, because that is what has caused this kind of pain in the past. My parents kept him really comfortable and on a constant diet of pain pills because he started chemo today, and we knew that if we took him to the hospital, they would keep him for a long time and he wouldn't make my wedding. Chemo shrinks the cancer and stops his pain, so he toughed it out all weekend. If he needed to get up to sit, or to go to the bathroom, we had to help lift him, so he just laid on the couch and slept, or watched TV and movies pretty much the entire weekend. Today my dad took him to start chemo therapy, and the doctors had some news for us....The results from T's marrow sample last week came back and showed the growth of the tumor in his bones is negative, and that the pain he is experiencing is the regrowth of healthy marrow!!! They knew that at the end of last week, but forgot to call and tell us. So we worried all weekend for nothing.

Marrow results
The best part of the report:


This is the best news we have gotten for a while! We are all very happy today, and a lot of stress has been alleviated from our minds. T still needs to get two transplants to kill the rest of the cancer, but the worst possible scenario has been avoided based on today's results. Now if we can just get through my reception on Saturday, life will be a lot more calm and relaxing.